Weariness

....well, that's what I've been lately......weary, worn out, sick and tired, fed up, aggravated and anything else you can think of along those lines. I have felt like I don't have the energy to go on one more day. I question the "call", my motives, my ability and my "want to". Why does everthing have to be so hard - so much work? It would be a whole lot easier to be average, complacent or even down right LAZY. (I did get to enjoy a wonderful, rainy day this past Friday. I curled up on my couch under an electric blanket, read a book and watched a movie ALL DAY!!!)



I guess that reminds me, as the Bible says, that WIDE is the gate that leads to destruction and NARROW is the way to heaven and few there be that find it. My flesh can come up with every excuse to not DENY myself, take up my cross and follow Jesus. We truly are a self indulgent society - there is very little we have to "deny"ourselves of in this culture. I don't want this mentality to affect my spirituality.



I'm thankful for my brothers and sisters in Christ that "spur" me on and remind me that I MUST finish the race....and so I run, with eternity set in my heart.



2 Corinthians 4:8-10 I'm pressed but not crushed, persecuted but not abandoned, struck down but not destroyed..........



I am truly blessed. God has been so good, so faithful and so merciful to me - the very least I can do is live my life as an offering to Him.